New York/London/America is not for me after all, I am definitely more used to Taiwan yes? Does that say anything about me? :)
Toska
“Toska - noun /ˈtō-skə/ - Russian word roughly translated as sadness, melancholia, lugubriousness.
“No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.”
― Vladimir Nabokov
No word can describe this feeling better than this.
What can I do to make this go away? I can’t even find the root of this, it just feels like.. it’s eating me up. I feel so so damn terrible and empty. Every single moment, I am just waiting and waiting and waiting. Waiting for nothing. Yearning for nothing. Indifference.
如果宗教是心灵和情绪的寄托，那书籍和电影就是我的寄托
You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone. And when it’s time to act and you’re all alone with your back against the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one telling you what you already knew. The one that’s almost always right.
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| — | Grey’s Anatomy (via runawaytrain) |
那些年- 人海中遇見你
你的愛值得信賴 你的心靠在身邊
只要你在我就有許多夢想 只要你在我就有更多力量
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 就從這一刻起和你分享所有感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 就從這一刻起和你分享真心的感覺
你的愛沒有保留 你的心獻給了我 只要你在我就有更多理想
與你同在就好像擁抱天堂
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你 親愛的我多麼盼望
每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
你的愛沒有保留 你的心獻給了我只要你在我就有更多理想
與你同在就好像擁抱天堂
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺
親愛的我多麼幸運 人海中能夠遇見你
親愛的我多麼盼望 每一天在這裡和你分享家的感覺
Really beautiful lyrics. Oh what would I do without the existence of music.
I love the rain.
It’s raining tonight, and i’m lying in my bed listening to the sound of the rain beating against the windows, all dry and safe from the storm outside. I haven’t felt so blessed for a long time.
A guy and a girl can just be friends, but at one point or another they will fall for each other. Maybe just temporarily, or maybe at the wrong time, or maybe too late. Maybe forever. Sure they won’t say things, but that doesn’t mean they don’t feel them.
So damn true.
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| — | (via eletheowl) |
If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.
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| — | Albert Einstein (via nathanielswhite) |
There’s always going to be this one thing you wish for but never get. That one mistake you wish you can erase but can never take back. And most of all, that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it again.
Two wrongs don’t make a right, & that’s why we’re not together anymore. If you’re over me, then you were never in love with me. And yes, I’m over you because I was never in love with you. When I said I loved you, it was a message from my mind which was taken over by infatuation. I’m not stupid anymore, I realised you’re not worth my time.
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| — | (via eletheowl) |
I admit that I feel pretty empty lately and it’s not that loneliness that everyone feels. It’s the emptiness of everything. It’s the center of everything. I admit that I feel empty sometimes. Sure, I can live with feeling empty, but sometimes the gap of emptiness reach a greater height and I can’t bear the feeling all on my own. I don’t how long this emptiness is going to last, but I hope it goes away soon or at least I’ll grow accustom to it.
I don’t get if it’s me.. or is this how it’s supposed to be? Why is it that, every single time, it must come back to this cycle? I thought it would be different, i saw potential. I don’t want this to be another thing which i’ll think back and feel pathetic and disgusted at myself. I’m not even asking for much. Why must everyone do this?
I can’t help pulling myself away and no, this time round i won’t be sorry.
I’ve never really been treated like a princess. Not one boyfriend has spoiled me or even given me the slightest idea that I was labeled as “his”. Not one boyfriend ever made me feel like I was his number one girl, or even special. For the longest time I’ve settled for a decent guy, I figured I would always have to “put up” with a negative. But I’m learning I shouldn’t have to settle, no one should. You should have that Prince Charming because sweetheart, you deserve 10 times better than that asshole.
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| — | (via eletheowl) |
